well,being single sucks. but i noe i will do fine without him. his been der for me during all my rainy seasons,and if im strong enough,i noe i can pull thru even e darkest storms. ive done tat before,and i noe i still can. i guess believin in myself is all i need to do right now. friends have been sweet. i noe hu there are cos good frens dun let u down wen u need them. in fact,im glad all my frens cared so much for me.

mao bought me a delifrance bread today. she really is sweet. this is e multiple time she gave us girls sweet treats. somehow,i appreaciate it alot. im so waiting for my pay. my bill was freaking high tis month. i changed my number so my total bill tis mth is 120bucks. 90 bucks jz for my usage. damn,i friggin have no idea who i message. maybe could be because my work frens contact me quite frequently. n ive been usin my hp to call. so i tink tats y it got so high.

owe him a few bucks. planning to sell my samsung hp soon cos i dun tink i can afford to pay alot of stuff. enrolling bike licence once i got my pay. ayu promised to send us to BBDC if we got practical. hope she keep her word. haha!! but i dun expect anyting much lah.

chilled wit ayu n aini at bpanjang plaza. ive started back smoking. its e only form of stress release. since now no one is there to stop me from smoking..i tot heck. im trying not to lah cos i noe,its sucha waste of money. but seriously,it help so much. ayu ask y i dun seem tat upset,but im trying hard to control it outside. i cried in front of her,n damn..holdin one's tears is friggin hard

big fite wit dad yesterday. he threw a hard thing directly at my head and now im having side effects. i jz vommitted cos ive been feeling so giddy evasince.fuck. maybe goin for a check up soon.hopefully my skull is still intact tho. haha!

to all my lovely frens hu's been there for me..thanks so much. i love u guys with all my heart. pardon me when i break down sumtimes. people like ayu,aini,umi,leney,mao,pris,gina,shiff etc...

kept listening to this song cos rite now,tis song reflect me so much. i repeatedly listen to it,n everytime i do so..i cried multiple times. e chorus part is e one tat really state what i feel...

chorus:
I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)
Walk Away, Walk Away
(I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me)

I can't forget how we used to be
Our life from day to day
Hoping maybe you'll come back
And though I tell myself not to be afraid
To move on but it seems I can't
Though a new man has given me attention
It ain't the same as your affection
Though I know I should be content
In the back of my mind
I can't help but question
Does he kiss me on the forehead
Before we play
Show up on my doorstep
(with a bouquet)
Does he call me in the middle of the day
Just to say hey baby I love you
Like you used to

dearest shukor..no matter wat..i want u to noe..i love u. owes...2yrs is not something u can let go so easily. memories,forever will remain in my heart. goodbye~once again,im terribly sorry